This is my favorite scene in "Reply 1988". It's a popular Korean Drama. But well.. Im not going to talk about this drama anyway.
This scene reminds me of my Bapak. And I realized this might be the feeling of being a father.
Many times I disagree with the way he thinks, talks, and acts. I think this or that should be better.
Back again to this scene, when he said "It was my first time being a dad". It hit me so hard. My dad was not suddenly has a super power and knows everything after we were born as his children. He made mistakes and hurt my feelings sometimes. But the thing is, I also forget I make mistakes too and 100% hurt his feeling many times.
Bapak and me are getting older. I can see the difference between us now. When I was younger it's so easy to make cry and bowl my eyes out. Bapak was not someone who liked to see a crying baby so he would get angry If I cried. But the more I grow the hardest for me to cry. And now, Bapak is the one who easily to cry on.
Today is his birthday. I called him by video call. After I said my wishes for him, he cried. And its not really weird anymore to seeing my tough father became so easy to cry on just because some touchy words. It's just his part of being a father. And I hope I can be seen as being a daughter in his eyes.
So, Bapak... Happy Birthday.
Thank you for being my father. Thank you for all of you've done. Thank you for praying for your children instead of for yourself even on your own birthday. Please be healthy and happy. Enjoy your old days by seeing us--your children and grandchild.
