That's exactly what I am feeling right now. But first of all, Im not dumped by my *future:p* boyfriend. Nope :p
He's still out there looking for me *wink*
I feel so sad because of my friends.
I have two close friends.
Last friday, one of my friend, asked me to go out on Saturday to visit a bazaar in my city. Actually she was asking me at that bazaar and she wanted to go again because on that day we couldnt see every stand. I said I couldnt go in the morning because I had to go somewhere. But she said not in the morning but maybe in the afternoon, she'll text me for the right time . So I said okay.
While my other friend has agreed to go too. So, three of us might be there again.
But, on saturday I didnt even get any text. As I wait and wait and even cancel my planning so that I can go with her.
But.. no text nor call...
So I thought our planning has canceled.
And next monday, after we finished our duty, I heard both of them talked about their times on that bazaar. I thought they told about ours on friday, but I was wrong. They went on saturday without even telling me. How cruel...
I know, they know me that Im not a kind of person who likes to go to the crowded place especially shopping. For me its tiring and boring. I love to go to the quite place and if I want to buy something I usually know the place well and what should I buy, so I dont have to do some kind of window shopping. And maybe Im not really suitable to hang out with them for this matter.
What makes me so sad is, she asked and I said yes. When I said yes, even I truly hate it, I'll take my responsibility. She even said she would text me. So, why they didnt even text me just to make me not to wait.
I remember, several days ago me and one of my friend wanted to lunch and that friend asked me to text my other friend whether she wanted to eat with us. She thought about HER!!!! But why they didnt even thought about ME???
And some sad moments are running inside my head lately...
I feel so useless. Do they thought me as their friend so far? Are they really my close friends? Or maybe this is just my own feeling to think they are my true friends while they dont?
Back to that day. As my friend talked about their fun times I suddenly quite. It was really hard to hide my feeling. Being betrayed and dumped :(
That friend seemed to know I was not in the good mood to hear that story and try to cheer me up with MORE hurting words.
that friend : It was really fun there especially if you were there
me : *light smile*
that friend : But Im sure that place is not suit to you. Because you are a typical scientist person
me : *light smile and stabbed*
I know she didnt mean to hurt me but she did it.
My friends, its not because that...
Because I thought you guys were my friends, and even I dont like some things that you guys like, I'll try to be with you guys. And when you ask me to come, I'll try to come...
Thats supposed to be friends are for, right?
