a, s...Im Crazy About You

They are not the initials to someone that Im crazy about ;P

Its really letter a and s.

Different from when I was teaching in the playgroup, which mostly playing and trying to improve their soft-motoric skills, emotion and independent. This time in kindergarten I start to teach them to write numbers and characters. At first they traced them and slowly I asked them to copy them. Im so glad that most of my students were able to do that. But some of them, well.. they didnt.. yet!

I have one student. She was my former student in the playgroup before and now she is also my student in the kindergarten, so I almost know her more than one year. When she was in the playgroup, she was  so moody and lazy to do the tasks especially soft-motoric skill activities (coloring, tracing, painting). She was hard to remember the symbol of numbers (1-10 using flashcard) and often confused about colors.

But after several months in the kindergarten, I can see how she can improve better than before. She does her task nicely now, able to know and WRITE the numbers even I give randomly and know the colors well. But now, when we try to write, she has hard time for some letters. Especially, a and s!

Today, I almost blew my head when I taught her those 2 letters.. :D

When she wrote an a, she would make a circle and make a little backward tail. And her s was definitely like number 2. I guess because she had hard time to write number 2 before and when she did it  successfully, she really couldnt forget how to write number 2 right now even it was the letter s.

My patience has been tested again today :) I sat next to her, sometimes held her hand and even drew a snake and explained the s was like a snake and showed her where was the head and where was the tail :P

Good thing was, she slowly understood. Sometimes she forgot and tested me again and again. But so far, today was better :)

I believe nothing would be in vain, anyway... :)

Yesterday, I taught her to write letter m. She always wrote m with a gap. I said m was like having 3 feet but she wrote it with 4 feet. But, with our practice, she could write her m almost perfect now. Im so proud of her :)

Im wondering how my parents and my teachers taught me to write long long time ago :P

Deep Deep Sigh

Have you ever did something together with a person who's totally different from you? I have ("~")

Well.. right now Im in the situation where I should take a really deep sigh about our differences. Actually Im not a freak neat person, but I truly hate to see something mess. My hands are itchy to tidy up anything that can look so mess on my eyes.
I once heard that to keep your memory good, the simple you can do is returning things to the place where you took it before.
And when I see, some things that should not be on my table, I will take it back to the original place even Im not the one who take those things. At first I didnt say anything even to myself. Just make it as tidy as I could do.

But lately, Im angry to myself because how can there is a person who can not even see the way I did and the next day and the next day still didnt even realize she needs to tidy up by herself.

When  I thought about this, I wanted to tell directly but I dont know I'd prefer to shut my mouth right now.

Just take a deep deep sigh...

Why does its so hard to tell something honestly that its supposed to be good for other people???

Ferdinand The Bull

Two days ago I got a chance to join training for english teacher. The topic was about "Story Telling". Although Im not an english teacher, this is suitable for me as my students love to listen to a story.

I like to listen to a story but I dont like to tell story in front of so many audiences. Well.. with my students its kinda different and it doesnt matter to me, but to the audiences where they were all english teacher and even I was the youngest there, it really made me nervous.

When the last day of our training, we've been asked to tell a story and practice the technique that speaker did. The night before that, I was really really confused what story I should tell. In my head was only the Bible story or Disney's fairytale. So, I searched on internet, but I didnt get any clue.

But suddenly, one story was running inside my head. It was 'Ferdinand The Bull'

I knew this story when I watched 'The Blind Side' played by Sandra Bullock. Its my fave movie since then and also the story of Ferdinand :)

So, I decided to tell about Ferdinand that day. Dont ask me how did I look that day..hehe.. I was not a good story teller I guess but I realised how I love the story. Sometimes, Im wondering Ferdinand is like me..haha.. No.. no.. not because Im like a bull, I just thought his life is kinda like me ;p

Well.. anyway I want to tell you a lil' bit about Ferdinand. Oh.. by the way Ferdinand was written by Munro Leaf.

Once upon a time in Spain, there was a little bull named Ferdinand. All the other bulls he lived with would jump and run and also butt their heads. But not Ferdinand. He liked to sit just quietly and smell the flower. He had fave spot out under a cork tree. He would sit in its shade and smell the flowers.

Sometimes his mother would worry about him and thought he would be lonesome all by himself.
"Why dont you run and play with the other little bulls and skip and butt your head", said the mother.
But Ferdinand would shake his head and said "I like it better here where I can sit quietly and smell the flowers"
His mother saw that he was not lonesome and because she was an understanding mother, she let him there and be happy.

As the years went by, Ferdinand grew until he was very big and strong just like his friends. All his friends would fight each other because they wanted to be picked to fight at the bull fight in Madrid. But not Ferdinand, he still liked to sit just quietly under the cork tree and smell the flowers.
One day, five men came and wanted to pick the biggest, tallest and strongest bull to fight in bull fight. All the other bulls were running, snorting and butting their heads to show off to them. But not Ferdinand, he knew that they wouldn't pick him and He didnt care. He went out to his cork tree to sit down. He didnt look where he was sitting, instead of sitting on the grass, he sat on a bumble bee.
So, Ferdinand was sting by the bee and it was really hurt. So he was running, jumping and snorting.
The five men saw him and they thought he was showing off his power.
So, they picked him.

And the day of fight finally came. They had parade into the bull ring before the game was started. Flags were flying, bands were playing and all the lovely ladies had flowers in their hairs. There was also the matador, the proudest of all. He had a red cape and a sword to stick the bull. Then came the bull. It was FERDINAND.
They called him Ferdinand the Fierce.

So, Ferdinand ran to the middle ring and everyone was shouted and clapped because they thought he would going to fight fiercely and butt and stick his horns around.
But not Ferdinand. When he got to middle of ring, he saw the flowers in the lovely ladies hair and just sat down quietly and smelled the flowers.
He wouldnt fight and be fierce no matter what they did. The matador was mad and cried because he couldnt show off with his cape and sword.
So they had to take Ferdinand home.

And for all I know, he is sitting there still, under his fave cork tree, smelling the flower just quietly.
He is very happy...

Love this story.. :)
Dont be afraid to do something different from others. As long as it is right and makes you happy, why not?

When We Were So Young

How can I forget that days...

We were so young :)

Full of laughter, full of dreams
An absent teacher was our happiness
A cup of soup noodle was the best tasty food for our hunger
Working together for our homework was our unity
Hearing latest gossip was truly exciting
And dont forget our enemy from another class

still.. we were so young

There was so many times that I really want to look at our future
What would we be?

And now, I already got some of the answers

A closer friend is not always become as closer as it used to be
Unexpected classmate became an ex and now happily has girlfriend
The youngest in the gang became the first mom
A dream city came true
Unexpected job has brought new life
And the boy next door recently has new status on his sos-net

Its so funny if I could back to that days
Wondering all these answers

Im wondering what would we be for 10 years later...?

Pictures That I Want To Take If I Had a BF!!!

I dont know... maybe its because its the beginning of rainy season *Im gloomy everytime when its raining* or maybe recently I saw my friend's pictures on her facebook with her husband and her daughter *wink :P*
I suddenly want a couple pictures too!!! Hahaha :D

I laugh out loud to myself for this feeling. I mean, its so surprising when I usually hate to see lovey dovey pictures on my timeline. Oh pleaseeee..just keep those pics on your own. Why you should show everyone all of your love life. No need to see that thank you "~"..

But my friend's picture makes me think. Oh so sweet.. they're actually been in love just by seeing in their eyes *^_^*

And my imagination with Mr. Who is starting...

So, here are the pictures that I want to take if I had a bf ;P

Holding hands with the beach as the background. And I would love to see that in black and white. Dont ask me why please. I just love it.. :) You can find the image here

And how about this?

This is one of my fave too... I would love to take pic with our shoes. And sneaker must be my fave ;p. See the image here

Im a korean movie/drama lover. And I admit it, they are really good in making promotional poster. Here is one of my fave

Library is also my fave background. And this couple perfectly fit in my imagination :P

And maybe when we fight and keep a distance for each other. Im sure this pic is suitable for us. No matter how mess our akai ito, we still connected. Hahaha :D

And even in the silence, with him... everything would be perfect :)

And finally.. facing the camera and made a lovey dovey pose ..hahaha :D

Many thanks for these dramas and movies which can make me daydreaming so far.
As I searched the nearly image for my imagination, I thought I shouldn't post this feeling in this blog. Kinda stupid and weird. But, well.. that's just part of me :p
Im just sorry for you for jumping into my nonsense right now.. really.. this is just my imagination after all...
I have lots of couple pictures in my head right now but I guess these pictures have shown what I want. So, when will it happens anyway? Lets see then. Im still single right now and have no couple pictures yet. It doesnt matter really. From now lets just leave those pics on the corner of my wish.
As an author told in her book said, 'to be and then to get'
Lets prepare.. prepare.. and maybe someone worth waiting would be came :)

By the way you can see these korean drama/movie pictures here

Spontaneous Request

Well.. I truly understand now for someone said "be careful for what you wish"
because it happens to me this afternoon.
About several weeks ago, I heard my friend has to do something that I never do before. But that friend looked so annoying because she didnt want to. When she said that, I talked to myself "why not?". Its a good chance and must be good for having new experience later. And then I requested to Someone.
"God.. I want that chance too. I want to try how does it feel"

That's all I can remember...

I forget that spontaneous request as I've been so busy with my work. What I want to do right now is finishing my task and enjoy my weekend to the fullest!!!

But yeah you cant imagine anything will happen soon. In the middle of my hectic job, I heard news that I GOT that chance FINALLY. I was stumbled for a little while. How soon is that? How come God really heard that request? I thought it was just unimportant request and for being honest maybe I was just having a little jealousy that day.

When I think about that day again, I thought I was became disgraceful and having lots of things to ask for Him. That's why I guess He wouldn't listen to that request. But, now I see again how wrong I am.

And because of my tiring job recently, I try to avoid it and looking for a chance to cancel it. See... how disgraceful I am :(
But I have no way.
I should take that chance

On my way back home I asked again "Why now?"
And I know the answer, "well..why not?"
hehehe... yeah why not. This is what I want before and why I have to turn back now. At least I still have off-duty in this weekend. Next week, Im sure I'll grab my chance and taste it happily and gracefully :)

Patience

When I woke this up morning, I prayed to God for giving me patience. I knew its monday, and usually after weekend holiday has ended Im quite moody *sigh*.
And then, I did my work and met my students happily. They are soooo cute and lovable :)

I understand they are still in their golden age and their behavior right now is sometimes sooo annoying. Really love to talk when they should listen, suddenly in silent mode when its time to answer, picky on foods, fighting with each other and trying anything dangerous things like doing wrestling *they thought its funny and entertaining but I truly hate it >.<*

Anyway, on 9 am, we were heading to the second floor. They will join jolly phonics class *its a method to teach kids about english by the sound of letter. Pretty good :)*. We use stairs and I always tell them to be careful by walking one by one and DO NOT EVER push or pull your friend in there. After I reached the second floor, ready to wait them in front of the room, I saw one of my student pushed his friend. Thank God, he's okay. I suddenly lost my temper and asked him angrily why he pushed his friend. He didnt say anything because he's too scared with me *Im so scared when I get angry :P*.

After my long words, I asked him to asked apologize to his friend and made him promise to be not behaved like that anymore.

Im so afraid with accidents which might be happened to them . I really love my students and I dont want them to be hurt. That's why I was really angry when they did something harmful like that. Maybe they dont really understand why their teacher became so awful with that. They thought it was just a joke and honestly I believe they didnt have any intentions to hurt their friends. They are just kids after all.

But I guess thats my job. To protect them even I lost my gentle sounds sometimes...

When I act like that, I realized how God teach me so. There are so many times He gets angry with my inappropriate act. Doesnt mean He hates me and want me to be hurt, but He truly loves me and trying to teach me.

Well.. God, Im wondering how good You are to be A Teacher with lots of students in this world. I have 21 students and my head is so dizzy sometimes when I have to face their different characters. No wonder, You are A God :D

Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and the other day, let me be a teacher like the way You teach me :)